Sunday, September 29, 2019

Week 5 Reflection -- 学汉语学得很难

Not to complain, but after taking the language from 7th to 10th grade, taking Intermediate 1 Chinese is quite the challenge. I am remembering some elements of grammar or some vocab that I learned back in the day, but speaking and getting it right is really difficult after not really interacting with the language for 2 years. I know I can't drop the class since its 5 credits, so I'm pushing through (plus I don't mind a challenge). Despite my resolve to be successful in the class, I won't get much further once the "review" period ends next week unless I commit myself to speaking on a regular basis and to getting my book work done ahead of its due date so I can begin to review for quizzes.

Another thing keeping me focused when it comes to this class is my forward thinking. I know that eventually, learning the language will come in handy for me and it could very well help me in my career. Obviously, the long-term benefits will pay off, but for now I'm going to probably be studying until my thoughts and dreams are in Chinese, too...


How Has it Only Been ONE Month?

This past week marked the one month anniversary of our move into college. To me, that seemed insane as I honestly feel as if I have only ever lived on this campus and the idea of showering not in flip flops is only an absurd fantasy. In one month, so much has changed. 
In high school, I was taught of Machiavelli, Hobbes v. Locke, Alexander Hamilton and all of these political trailblazers based on their summaries and main ideas. This has led me to latch a divinity and out-of-touch perspective on these individuals and their writings, as I have only referred to them through this mindset that their words were only to be read by professionals and experts in the field. While this viewpoint is reflective of my insecurities, it made me continue having to give myself a reality check when reading The Prince, A Letter Concerning Toleration, and The Federalist Papers. While reading their words, unredacted (for the most part, as Machiavelli’s was a translation), I have been forced to place these historical and influential thinkers in a category of any other author I have read. Their words, analyzed, satirized, praised, and condemned by the world for centuries, have entered my brain and I have been involved in discussions and debates over their main intention. 
This awe maybe just from me, but I cannot help but continue to feel so lucky for the opportunities that American has offered me thus far. In many ways, I like having to keep pinching myself for the life and experiences I am having at AU, as it reminds me just how impactful international relations major can be. It will be strange when, if ever, it is normalized for me to visit global embassies and read the work of such influential political thinkers. 

Reflection Week #5

This week went by surprisingly fast. I thought that with rehearsals for the play, all of my work, and likely not much sleep, the week would stretch out into oblivion. But, I was wrong. We did have a lot of rehearsals (something every night) but since we were basically done with refining everything, we were simply running the show and bonding as a cast and crew. Honestly, this week was probably one of my best yet.

Sunday's rehearsal was long, but afterwards I was able to get back and read all about oil. I'll admit, I was not looking forward to the reading as I thought it would be dry and long, but it ended up being very interesting. Even though the reading gave historical examples, I was able to think about it in the context of modern day and tied it together with conflict in the Middle East. Since there's so much oil in that region of the world, it's interesting to think about different extremist groups trying to take power in that region because with oil comes power, as we've learned from the article. Once we got to class on Monday and were discussing the piece within our small blog groups, I felt engaged and was able to offer insight on the topic.

The next days passed in a blur of me being the master procrastinator that I am at times and fairly productive at others, and soon enough it was the night before our opening show. I struggled through Locke's article, my mind not really being in it, thinking about all that I needed to do before we performed so that I could relax afterwards. Luckily, I was able to accomplish what I needed to on Thursday and opening night went extremely well! I would even argue it was the best of all our shows. Everyone in the cast and crew was hyped and ready to go, and with a full house we fed off the audience and put all of our energy into the performance. I was so happy with how we did, and continued to feel fulfilled when I came back and bonded with some of the other people on my floor.

Our next shows went perfectly fine, but with smaller audiences they simply weren't as good as our first one. After our final show, I realized how close I had grown to some of the members of the cast and how happy I was to be with them. Finding this new community that I fit in with so well has really helped to make me feel like a true AU student, and I can't wait to continue building those relationships!

Trusting My Process--Reflection 5


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 “Trust the process. Your time is coming. Just do the work and the results will handle themselves.” ~Tony Gaskins~

Trusting my own personal process has been my struggle this week. I have hit a wall that I never thought I would face. The carpet was snatched from under my feet, and I was floored. Why am I a Global Scholar? Why am I here at American? I began to ask myself these questions, and of course, the uneasiness and doubt was topped off with a glass of confusion. One paramount event that happened this week that really got me thinking was an SIS panel with 4 SIS faculty who shared their paths to where they are now. It was surprising to know that some of their backgrounds had nothing to do with what they're currently pursuing. However, everything has come full circle, despite their not-knowing. Sometimes trusting the process and going with the flow is the only option and solution for dealing with certain scenarios in life. I am slowly learning to trust my process.

Another feeling I experienced this pass week was the feeling of my voice being stolen from me because since I have been here at AU, speaking has been a difficult task for me because I begin to feel that my words are not of value or good enough to be said, which is a big jump from who I once was, and the confidence I once had in  my voice. I am hoping that through adopting the words of Tony Gaskins, and "trusting [my] process, I will be able to be confident in what I have to contribute to discussions. It raises a concern for me because I am even reluctant to participate in discussions that are not educational. I plan on working with my self to improve this situation.

In World Politics, my favorite reading for the week was John Locke's "A Letter Concerning Toleration". I found the discussion of this particular reading intriguing, because of his main argument of how government should not make decisions based on religious governance made me reflect on what it would really mean for government to make such a move, and the impact it would have on a society. I think about the people whose will contradicts the ideal lifestyle of those who would agree with a religiously influenced governance, and it would result in an uproar of people fighting for their rights. When the government combines religion with their governance they threaten the trust of the public because the public can only stand their rights being threatened for so long. All in all, John Locke proves the negative impact that mixing religion and government has on a society and its people.

I hope this coming week offers a mentally challenging surprise. I'll trust the process.

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Friday, September 27, 2019

Life Isn't all Rain clouds and Mosquitoes

***warning: profane language is used*** 
Earlier this week I was sitting with my friend Rachael over a healthy snack of TDR sugar cookies and fries. When I looked up from my reading of Locke’s “A Letter Concerning Toleration,” I noticed Rachael making this face: 
I was slightly concerned, but I decided to let it be. However, ten minutes later when I went to go dip my fry in my mayo, and I saw her with the same facial expression, I decided it was time to inquire. It turned out she had been staring a convoluted midterm essay question. We all know, when we are presented with a difficult question, the first step is to stare at it really hard and await the bestowal of inspiration—which is what she did.  When that doesn’t work, the next best step is to try to get some ideas on paper by writing with no filter. When Rachael tried that method, this is what she produced: 

America is a land of bullshit founded by liars, rapists, and douchebags who only came to the “New World” for economic growth and prosperity, as well as a mass grab-bag-raffle for land stolen from indigenous people who treated the land with the love and respect it deserved. Until Columbo the clown himself came over from Spain…..well let me re-phrase, got so goddamn lost that the flat-earther-founding-father himself thought he was in India, and decided that this land was now “my land,” and yet somehow his fan club stuck into the song that he also sang “this land is your land’”--- bringing about the shittiest patriotic American song. The song is literally about putting a disease-ridden peace blanket over the atrocities Europeans so nicely gave to the Native Americas, that also follows America’s weird and creepy obsession of expansion, manifest destiny, and ‘civilizing’ others with a nice hand-holding melody to go along with it. In this essay I will talk about how Columbus is a dick that did not create, find, or found America, but how somehow the asshole himself is apparently so important that he wriggled his way into millions of American text books for 4th graders to learn about “America the Beautiful”. Wake up kids, history is a liar.” 
(This was published with permission from Rachael H. She has since edited it and filtered it for a brilliant essay)  

I know, at first read, her thoughts may sound extreme.  
 I think there are two different general, initial reactions: 
1)   You laugh grimly, nod your head, and say to yourself “Well, she’s got a point.” You then let your mind wander down the long path of all the problems the U.S. has, ending with an overall sense that the U.S. is simply kinda crappy.  
2) You feel the heat rising. You get frustrated. You want to tell Rachael to watch her language,  and you feel the need to defend the attack, the slander, the negative implications Rachael just made against the wonderful United States of America.  

To those whose reaction aligned more closely to the latter, I urge you to practice some Thich Nhat Hanh compassionate listening. I can assure you that her purpose was aimed more at questioning the overly positive, and often non-critical, lens in which we are taught to view America’s history, rather than slandering the U.S. Furthermore, her language may be extreme, but her words are still valid, and they tap into an overall outlook expressed by a rising number of millennials.  

That outlook is one which permeates the first type of reaction to Rachael’s paragraph. It is an outlook that I’ve noticed in conversations with a lot of AU students, and it is an outlook that showed its influence in the past week’s discussions on realism. It is an outlook of negativity and pessimism surrounding The United States. There is, of course, plenty of foundation and reasons for this trending lens which I will leave to you to list. I particularly noticed the implications of this type of negativity/pessimism when reading the blogs concerning the issue of climate change under a realist perspective. I was surprised to see that a lot of writers came to the conclusion that the protests don’t matter, and nothing will be done to combat climate change under realist principles. Although these conclusions may have been produced by the limitations of having to apply a theory which one may not agree with to the situation, normally, I’ve discovered that if someone has a more positive and hopeful outlook, they will find a way to express that despite limitations. This brings me back to the conclusion that a lot of my classmates are examples of the trending lens of pessimism and negativity.  

I fear that this mode of thought, that the U.S. is basically shitty and everything is hopeless, compounds itself in a negative feedback loop ending in low efficacy and inaction.  
I also cannot ignore the reality of the situation. In one perspective of history, the U.S was founded on power hungry, realist, ‘survivor of the fittest’, principle which has hurt a lot of people. As Rachael inferred, that narrative is certainly expressed in the story of Columbus.  

To confront the outlook of negativity and pessimism, which I believe to be quite dangerous. I would urge this: Acknowledge the issues found within American History, acknowledge the current problems in the U.S., but then actively begin to think about how you can make amends with our past and begin to fix the present. Don’t succumb to the sense of hopelessness and negativity.  



Some Positive things millennials have created: 
2019 Millennial Slang Crossword 







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Down: 
  1. 1)What to say when you are shocked or surprised. “I’m____” 
  1. 2)What you say when someone says something relatable. “What a___” 
  1. 3)Phrase to say when you think something is funny or ridiculous.  
Across:  
  1. 1)Word to use when expressing an emotion/desire without coming across too forceful needy, or serious, or when you fear judgement for expressing the emotion/desire. “I ____ want to eat that whole cake right now.” 
  1. 2)When someone says something that criticizes, insults, or trashes someone/something else, oftentimes in a subtle and sometimes indirect manner. “Wow, you really just threw some ____”  
  1. 3)Used to describe someone who really knows what’s up 
Millennials: expanding the English vocabulary one slang word at a time. We can make a difference.